blogging... and a pact...

You know, I was really nervous starting this blog.

Firstly, I didn't want people to feel as if I was 'going on' about it, and secondly I didn't want it to sound like a 'poor me' thing. Because that isn't what it is about at all. I am not concerned as to how many people read it at all, it was just an exercise to help me put my thoughts together and try to express in some small way what I was feeling. I really don't want people to feel obliged to read it, its probably not something that can be described as light, easy reading!

But I have been completely overwhelmed by the response to it, I have had some really lovely comments, publicly and privately and I feel so pleased that it has been well-received.

I don't want it to be something that is just sad, all of the time. Because I don't feel sad all the time. A lot of the time, but not all the time. And I would love for positive things to come out of this.

Its just that I am hearing (and I don't know whether I am tuned into it or not) quite a few sad stories at the moment. Old friends we lost touch with. Children. Babies. Parents. And really, in all honesty, you don't know when it is going to be your time. I don't want to dwell on that fact and I don't want it to affect my daily life else I will go mad! However, Greg and I made a pact recently, after everything that has happened, that we shouldn't leave each other (or anyone else we love) on a bad word. Like when he goes to work, or I go out. Even if we are feeling frustrated with each other or have had a bit of a row, we shouldn't part without making up. Just in case. Because you never know.