Where is he now?

I am not religious.

I don't believe in God, or Heaven or anything like that. I think it would be easier if I did, as at least it may give me some comfort - I can imagine that if I did believe at least I would know where my Dad is now. But even though this massively momentous thing has happened, it hasn't made me question my non-belief.

But I suppose it has made me question what happens once you die? I feel my Dad all around me, he is in me and he is with me. I can picture him so vividly and I can hear him, but I think that is because he is part of me, always has been and always will. I know that we are born, and then we live, and then we die. I honestly don't know any more than that, and I am not sure whether I want to. I think I am happy with the simplicity of that.

Lots of people have spoken about him being with the angels, or with his Dad, his friend, or with God. I am grateful that that helps others in their grief, but actually I like to think that he is just everywhere - all around us. He has left his mark on the earth through me and my brother, and our children. He has left memories for everyone he knew. He is always going to be here, even though he isn't. And I guess that is good enough for me.